Saturday, February 26, 2005

i'm still doing econs. arghh. so damn t0ugh. why on earth did i take up ec0ns. grumpz. ok my ear is starting to hurt. the one i just pierced. fancy getting stressed at this hour. dotz.

yawn. shall digress a little. lets talk about mjc's official opening ceremony. heh heh.

hmm...had lunch at cafe cartel before heading back to school with some lexonnians. then..waited for like an hour before the ceremony started. fortunately we were in an air-conditioned hall. haha. the aluminis wh0 went back...look very different! haha... some looked as if they were attending a prom held at sch0ol. haha. ok anyway, i saw ccs's principal mr g0h! ba0 still asked whether i waved at him. i doubt he even recognises me lor. haha. besides the fact that band went out of tune during 1 part, a gal in ch0ir was singing too fast at 1 point...everything was alright. heh. the spirit was there lar. the mj spirit i mean. reminded me of orientation haha. oh ya, a camera man from channels news asia came. haha dia0x. then the minister of defense came. i dont know how to spell his name. and dont know who else came lar. what i couldnt tolerate was the long speeches they gave. so yvonne and i ended up reminiscing our childh0od games. haha. we looked pretty dumb yar. hah. the food wasnt really nice also. oh well...it's finally 0ver.

ok the draw for squash nationals is 0ut. stressed. hai. though we've one pr0 squash-er for the gals, but its only one! other schools might have 5! and we'll be trashed hands d0wn. dia0z. fancy getting worked up at this hour...cuz of squash!.. so off-p0int lor. haiy0z.

i'm like dead tired. but still have s0 many stuff to do. and there's maths test on m0nday! totally eeyer! ZZz`~~ think i better go n0w.

night.

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4:45 PM

Friday, February 25, 2005

ell0z haha...what a slacker i am!...

today went to pierce the top of my ear! haha...it was damn ex can! total was 6bucks! i could have done it at heeren which is only 3.90. Zzz` anyway i ain't a coward after all haha...~ then went to the recreational club at changi airport for singing session with yf, angela, von, kuanlye, sandy and pl. there was some displeasure cuz we could only book 2hours! but anyway... shan't elaborate on it zZz`~~

then we went to suntec and we saw violet! the econs teacher whaha. anyway we walked around and went to some phone shops. then we went to watch closer. its our first official m18 m0vie! haha.. luckily eng wah goes by year. yesterday i went to cathay it goes by month! haha dia0z. anyway the show wasnt really nice lar. kinda confusing. then the worst part was...there was some technical problems like...suddenly no subtitles. then the voice of the actors didnt telly with the movement of their mouths. Zz`~

oh ya we bought a black adidas bag for just 19bucks lor. haha. in the end all 5 of us bought the same bag. whaha`~ and i embarrassed myself just now lar. the salesman ended up laughing at me. dia0x. then i bought zj's present also. a umbro white shirt! haha...wanted to get him a wallet but i got that for him last year. dia0. still have to "plan" a birthday celebration for him.

i serious have no idea what i'm doing and what i actually want. it's heading aimlessly. hais.

You will always be a special part of me
You will always be a special memory
I will always cherish the wonderful moments
You have given me
You are in my heart wherever I may be
All the times we shared will always be to me
Songs my heart will sing refreshing melodies
I will put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony

but the past still lingers. it still freaks me out.

*-i hope that readers do not pester or question others to find out more about what i've written. the extend to which i am willing to expose...shows my reluctance and willingness to make that particular topic 0pen. and this is just an outlet for me to vent out my feelings and thoughts so i just hope readers will not press on further. if you seroiusly need to know, please ask me personally. dont go around asking others and become whats commonly known as "kpo". i seriously dont like it.

night. <3

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3:58 PM

Thursday, February 24, 2005

back for a quick update. got stuff to say you see...haa...

ok school ended at 9.30 which is totally kewl. then went out with the squash galz to cineleisure. caught feng shui! the show was freaky and gross lar. i hate the sound effects! so annoying. cuz it always freaked the hell outta me. whaha. ok. anyway i dont like watching horror films because...its always not worth it you see. half the time i'll be like...err....ya...you know i know lar huh. too embarrassed to pen it down. haa. there werent many movies and different people had different suggestions. so tiresome. thats the problem when one goes out with so many people. haha. so anyway, the sh0w was alright lor. haha. then took pictures as usual and...i went back to school!.. for the opening ceremony rehearsal d0tz!

back at school, we waited for like an hour before the rehearsal started!.. mj spent alot, and i really mean alot of money on this opening ceremony. everything was exaggerated and somewhat grant and spectacular. haha. anyway, it's a once-in-a-life-time occasion lor. so, somehow i think it's worth it and...that's how things are supposed to be. whaha~~ though the performance was short. i would say it was great. especially the ch0ir! p0werful. haha. didn't know they've such standard. not bad not bad. hee. the dance performance was also quite well done. hmm...band was alright lar. haha. oh ya, choir sang school song. band played school song. after everything, sang school song. again. haha. fortunately our school song is nice. haha...oh ya the hall was frigging c0ld lar. haha...

haiy0 yf wants to pierce the top of the ear and keeps influencing me. haha. geminis are indecisive creatures. whaha. i'm gutless lar ok. and i'm seriously afraid i would be the unlucky one who would hurt the nerve/vein if i pierce the top. haha. dotz. but looks co0l right!.. haha.. as people often say...girls would choose to be pretty despite having to put their lives on the fence. haha...so...should i? in a dilemma. haha. crap.

alright have to work my butt off now. nitey people~

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3:42 PM

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

me and my bestest friend, adeline aka ba0! heh...
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everlasting friendship!
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12:54 PM

ok lets update!.. i hate tuesdays! cuz there's 5 straight tutorial periods... Zzz`~ super tired today man. aiyah im like always tired. then kifa said i look moody. diaoz. haha anyway played daidee during class interaction period. mr lim's away for re-service then there's this super cute vj relief teacher taking his place for the time being. haa. so cute!

then went to scas! it was ok except for the part when we were told that we cannot use the facilities there cuz we are volunteers. pls lor. the person who said that is a dont-know-who lor. its the teacher there who said last week that we can use lor~! whats her problem manz. zZz`~ anyway, on the way home, ba0 msg-ed me about her p0or results. then met her on the way home. we'd been in the same class since primary1 all the way till sec4 ok. whaha. and we live just 2 blocks away! miss her so much lor. my bestest friend! haiz anyway, she's damn upset about her results and school and jc friends. hais. we stood below my block and talked for 1/5hrs. p0wer ah. haa. she's just so...distressed. hope she'll be able to make it through. jia y0u bao! =D~

according to her, srjc people are super hardworking. arghh. while mjcians are so slack...like me. ZZz`~ ok think i go do some work now. bYez

school ends at 9.30 tomorrow! wo0-hoo0o...

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12:49 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

me and my cousin haha. she's only 13 this year but much taller than me. dia0z~
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9:25 AM

relatives came this morning...well acutally they came very late last night when i was alseep. haa.

3 of my cousins came. came into my room and rumbled through stuffs. zZz`~ kept commenting on almost everything thats in my room. saw my pictures i took with my friends and when they saw a picture i took with kc, they insisted he's my boyfriend. dia0z~~ then kept playing with my hair. wanted to showcase their creativity and hence, i was chosen to be their "model". and...all they did was make a mess out of my hair and burst out laughing!! evil right. haha. then i was super sleepy and wanted to sleep so 1 of my cousin did her homework in my room. after few minutes, the other 2 cousins kept chasing each other and finally appeared in my room, banging the door numerous times. the youngest kept saying my another cousin is a dragon. haha. diaoz. nonetheless they're great and cute kids! hee. it'll be damn lively to have them at home. positively speaking its lively. negatively speaking...its noisy. whaha opps!~ anyway they're on the way back to malaysia already.

oh ya there was lion dance performance at my house this morning. haa. so damn loud and noisy. zZ. have that every year.

just completed chem tutorial. gotta go on with maths. arghh. thank god next week's a slack week! wee!.. because friday is mjc's opening ceremony! yea...after 3 years! its finally offically "opened". haha. so lessons will end at 9.30am on wednesday and there's no school on thursday and friday. how kewl can it can! woo hoo!.. =D

ok gotta go. cya! ^^

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9:21 AM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

yawns. dead tired. haha..

had flag day this morning. went to bugis. "business" was terrible! 8 out of 10 people whom i approached rejected me lor. zZz`~ thats why i dislike doing flag day! or perhaps its retribution? whaha =p we did for like only 1 hour? haha then me, yf, angela, kuanlye and sandy. slacked around bugis. oh ya i bought a cd for just 7bucks and its original!.. normally it costs almost 20bucks. haha. bought guang liang's new album. angela is burning zhang dong liang's album for me! wee!.. anyway the shop is along bugis street. bet everyone knows except me! grumpz.

then angela had to buy a blouse so we went to This Fashion. wanted to buy a dark green pants but changed my mind last minute. geminis are indecisive you know? haha. then i tired this white dress dont know who picked. haha. they commented i looked like a little gal. dia0z`~ walked and walked. dotz. then i went to buy this octopers ball, takopachi. damn gross lor! eEek. n0t nice! wanted to puke. argh. the thought of it is so turned off. zZz`~ then while i was eating the first octopers ball, there was this guy who was standing nearby. and when we walked past, he asked me whether he could have one. like so...diaoz~ obviously not. needless to say. haha. the tin was like 1/10 full? and practically weightless excluding the weight of the can! so paiseh. haha. oh well...

completed my gp essay and slept for a tiny bit, enjoyed guang liang's songs then went to meet zj. haha. he's become darker and has grown a little thinner. at least his face isnt as round as before. whaha. then he insisted that i go to his house first. and his grandparents were home! and i didnt bring anything to bai nian! so paiseh can. Zz. then zj quickly gave me his own oranges from home. Zz. dia0x. then went to pasir ris park. super windy. haha. slacked around there and now i'm home!

i ain't ready.
something's holding me back-fear.
perhaps i need more time.
confidence and faith.
can i have these in you again?
will i be left alone again?
but who can predict the future?
resignation and acceptance
i'll leave it to fate
.......

<3

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6:12 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

what am i doing online. arghh. was supposed to do maths! really wanted to! but i'm dead tired. after looking at the questions...they seem manageable haha. so...in the end i did like only 3 questions? whaha`~ ok shall read my lectures notes later. provided i dont doze off. haa....

today was an alright day lar. have to complete a gp essay. i dont like gp periods which i have like...everyday! so sian can. urgh. anyway...block test coming up! stressed`~haiz. siansation.

played tennis this afternoon. yf got scolded by ms choy because she was supposed to book the court one day before hand. but yf's always so last minute. haha. ms choy was like :" didnt you know that you're supposed to book one day before hand? tell me...how many more still dont know that they've to book one day in advance?" haha. so dia0z can! haha... squash training today was b0ring. coach abandoned us. he didnt come today. haha...yawn. after "training" we played captain's ball with the guys. stupid ys so damn tall lor. irritating know. then went to have desert with meixin, su ern and shi li. was practically shivering lor. damn cold! whaha`~ oh ya. realised that idolizing someone( idols ) can go to such extend that a person gets fanatically crazy about him/her. muhaha. ok off-point. shi li and i were talking about eye-candies in mj. so pathetic lor. haha...shan't go into details haha.

anyway the stinky meanies are really mean! haha. quite duh right. more people now know that they're so two-faced and insulting. haha. practically everyone is victimized now. oh ya didnt know many people, mainly lexonnians cant really stand someone in class. hmm...not to the extend of hating or dislike lar. just...find him...hmm...unnatural? haha. but who gives a damn about him? haha yawn. so well...this class is really really...pathetic.

oh ya wm, the roses you gave...how come it smells like salted fish now. haa.

there's flag day tomorrow. so tired!~ oh ya supposed to study my lecture notes first. bye peepz <3

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3:32 PM

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Argh! blogskins.com is really problematic! soooo lag... have to keep changing my blogskin. arghHh. and how come got so many mosquitoes!.. too sweet already huh. heh.

ok lets talk about today hmm...had chem test in the morning. was kind of rushing through it la. hope im able to pass? heh. oh ya and you know what? half way through the paper, my contact, the right one, went to the back of my eye! yes! the back! second time already! zzz~~ so i couldn't really see clearly and kind of panicked la. what if it dropped somewhere behind my eye?! d0tz. anyway after blinking and rubbing, it re-appeared hah. but couldn't put it back so for the whole day in school, i was partically blind. b0o!! the rest of the day went pass quickly. except for maths. cuz i didnt do the tutorial and was hoping i wouldnt be called to do it on the board. hah. and today during ms ee's class i was 100% stoned. i really didnt catch what she was saying lor all i heard was a+by. haha. and i think she saw my stoned look and called me to answer whats a!! thank god i crapped intelligently. whaha`~

oh ya yesterday was valentine's day! hah. wanted to bring something for angela and yf but forgot. whaha. nothing much happened either la. had training till 7+, was dead tired and had to study for today's chem test. oh ya when i reached home, received a bouquet of flowers by wm. hah. thanks ar! kind of unexpected you see. =)

i dont understand why this school likes to have tests whenever there're occasions before the tests. i mean, how are you supposed to have time to study in that case?! like today's test...no time to study last week lor. then the first monday after our school's opening ceremony, there's maths test! not that i'm involved. haha but still, the others have to practice and have rehearsals. lunatic school. muhaha.

ok gtg. tired! didn't get into the pool today because...wasn't able to. whahaha`~ argh so many mosquito bites!~ =(

<3

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11:02 AM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

complications of a relationship.

starts beautifully...continues simply...ends tearfully~~~

she was badly scarred by her previous him.
hopes which were once diminished
seemed possible once again.
all because of a ray of light that shined into her life
the day she met him
he, who taught her whats love again
he, who showed her that happiness doesnt exist in vain
blissful

but it was true
moments of happiness doesnt last
the one she trusted fully.
the one she loved whole-heartedly.
had another she.
courage
strength
confidence
it was more than those
before she believed in him once more

again

happiness was truly in vain
months of laughter
months of bitterness
months of memories
went as quickly as it came

in his eyes
she was no longer the one he used to hold onto dearly
she was no longer the one he wanted to see everyday
her voice was not what he wished to hear daily
her touch was not what he yearned for every moment

she, the girl who was once cheerful
was slowly shoo-ed away from his life.
she, the girl who was once contented with life
was constantly being neglected
she, the girl who was once blissful
was slowly being pushed off the cliff by him
unknowingly

the fear
the bottomless void
the utter desolation
the abyss
conquers her now.

broken hearts.
broken dreams.
something that she's to experience
again

who can ease the pain in her
who can find the key he lost
who can show her that loving someone
is not as fearful as it seems now
to her...

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5:03 PM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

did a quiz!.. haa...

Your Beauty lies in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most likely look far younger than you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's day. Seen as naive and sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for the most part, it's simply your reputation preceding you. You are most likely rather aware of the realities of life. You are extremely good natured and trustworthy. By the same token, you are a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest and open as you. You might seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies, and things most might deem you "too old for". But this doesn't bother you. You enjoy your youth and are going to make it last. After all you are only as old as you feel.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Light, Wind
Animal: Kitten
Color: White, Pink, Pastels
Song:Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile
Gemstone: Diamond
Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet:Moon Hair Color: White
Eye Color:Silver

Quote: "A stranger is just a friend you haven't met yet."

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3:17 PM

valentine's day is approaching... just wanna share something with you all =)

Once upon a time,
In a seemingly idealistic world,
Untainted and unscarred,
She met him.
They shared a moment together.
A dance tt she wld nv 4get.
He was perfect.
All tt she ever dreamt of alll her life.
Bliss.
A happiness tt she nv knew of.
Overwhelmed her. Took over all her senses.
They loved each others company,
Developing a bond so strong.
He was happy. She was happy too.
He cld make her smile like no one cld.
N he promised her tt he wld do all it takes
Jus to c her smile.

She had another guy in her life.
One tt she too cared 4 deeply.
But not in e same way.
He was always there 4 her.
A part of her life.
They shared a past.
Innocent times, unbridled freedom.
It jus came at an inappropriate time.
Frenz were e onli thg they cld b.
Taken 4 granted perhaps.
She ignored him. Foolishly.
Wanting the fireworks love.
But like fireworks,
It was beautiful. Magical. Explosive.
And fleeting.

Perfect beginning. Perfect relationship.
A less than perfect end.

It ended. One fine summy day.
They grew apart. Distanced.
He was not sure if she liked him.
She was not respondin e way he liked her to.
But dats jus how she is.
She knew deep down, he had a place in her heart.
But sadly, he wld nv ever get to noe tt.
He left b4 he cld realise it.
Opting 4 e easy way out.
Wanting another who loved him more
Than he did to her.
He nv gave her e chance to show dat
She cld also love him as much as her.
She cld love him too.

She was sad but nv let it show.
Rather let it bottle up within her.
Shutting it out.
It was her character.
Her frenz saw her pain thru her eyes.
They was nothin they cld do
But watch on helplessly.
Lik a ray of light in her darkness,
There was still him.
E one hu was there by her side all along.
The other him.

He was like an angel.
Watching over her. Being there 4 her.
It was a diff kind of love she felt 4 him.
Less overwhelmin. But jus as sweet.
He pulled her out of her pain.
He nursed e wounds.
She was grateful.
Slowly, she was happy once more.
He made it all alright.

Thx to her frenz,
He spent an unforgettable nite wif her on her bdae.
They tokked. Abt him n abt her.
And everythg seemed right.
Sadly, it was not.
She wanted him to study.
Did not want her to affect his studies.
She let him go.
Ignored him.
Building a fence between him n her.
Leaving him out.
It was her own fault. Sheer stupidity.
Asked 4 it. Deserved it.
But all she wanted was 4 him to have no regrets.
She did not wanna feel guilty.
She loved him.

In e end, she was e one regretting.
If only he knew.
He found someone new.
She was lost.
E life buoy tt she had always been clinging to
Had a new passenger.
Din noe wad to do.
E scar in her heart wld nv b mended again.

She was numbed. Tainted.
She used to believe in love.
Used to believe in fairy tales.
But now, she had jus started to learn dat
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it begins?
She cld nv love again.

Baby, can you stop the rain from falling?
Won't you chase my clouds away?
I'd give anything to see the sun again
Only you can stop these tears from falling.

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11:03 AM

so sweet. ^^
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10:56 AM

Friday, February 11, 2005

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR =)

8 feb
had cny celebrations in school. sucks totally okay. firstly, the j2s were in the LT while j1s in the air-conditioned hall. and who were the ones who helped raised funds for the air-con?! US. urgghh. secondly, the performance lasted for only an hour. so it ended about 8.45. so damn early! might as well dont go right. thirdly, no lion dance! grrr. all in all, there wasnt the festive mood around. zZz. dotZ. anyway, headed home and left for malaysia in the afternoon. had reunion dinner. then my uncle lighted those fire crackers after midnight! you know...like miniatured fireworks! heh. tired to study a tiny bit but...failed. heh.

9feb
received lots of ang baos! gee. and went to this shopping centre at dont know where. the mall was only half opened. Zzz. anyway didnt buy anything. my mum was the one who kept buying. she's a fast shopper. dotz. had reunion dinner again. then had to go bai nian but auntie jessy(mum's friend) lost her way. diaoz~~ so we were late. had 3 cups of wine. was abit dizzy and had breathing difficulties. why huh. dotx. taught my lil cousin some english after that. haa. i was sober enough to be able to do that. lol. had an early night. couldn't concentrate on studying. boo.

10feb
accompanied my parents to do some shopping again. my mum kept commenting that the things there are cheap. d0tz. my 7th uncle was giving a dinner treat but was a pity we'd missed it. cuz we'd to leave in the afternoon. been eating so much! f-a-t. zZz`~~ home sweet home =) have test next tuesday! organic chem somemore. how am i supposed to find time to study?! have to bai nian on weekends, tomorrow and monday got cca!.. mad is it. urghh.

hatred? distress? whatever it is...i dont like how i'm feeling now.

i refuse to let it flow...

can the wound inflicted ever heal.
can the painful memories ever fade.

can i unlock the door in my heart...
without getting hurt. again.

can i still believe in you...
without having to face disappointment. again.

can i still give you my heart...
without being left in an abyss of lonliness. again.

i wanna have faith and confidence in you. i wanna continue the story. but the truth is, can i?
can these be done without me getting hurt over and over again? i really wonder who'll be able to unlock the door within me. who'll be able to show me that loving someone...isn't as scary as it seems.

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1:36 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

erm some pictures for entertainment sake. =)

Yoz! squash girls! clarice was missing in action. haa. BBQ at evelyn's house. yea...i was eating LAYS. whaha`~~
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2:40 PM

me and clarice! on the way home from squash!!
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2:39 PM

today's a very tiring day. kept yawning and my eye-lids felt so heavy that i was 3/4 asleep during chemisty practical and actually also most of the lessons especially during maths tutorial!.. arghh. everyone was feeling quite lethargic today. yawnZ..

oh ya met up with kai this morning. known him for coming 4years already...a mixed blood(jap+chi) dude. hmm...he's a very devoted buddhist and he helped me to get this auspicious string from a temple. so kind man. thankz lot! according to him, it'll bless me in my studies and things like that. =)

had econs test today. it was entirely screwed up by me!.. AGAIN. think i'll only get1mark out of 8 for 1 of the question. AHH. and so...couldn't wait for school to end just now. totally listless. `~

i'm in the 3rd seed for squash. haa. funny. urm...off to malaysia tomorrow after school!.. that's where i've been spending my chinese new year for the past 17years ya. cuz my relatives on my dad's side are all situated there. heh. oh no...i haven't packed yet...urghh...

yAwn.

he's different now. on the exterior that is. haha ok.

but...

why now...when everything has already come to an end...

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2:16 PM

Sunday, February 06, 2005

jess and me! hah.
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tomorrow's jess birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!

hah. had pastamania just now. i can even make those pasta myself. serious. haa. anyway we tricked jess that we didnt get her any present and she actually fell for it! haa. but of course we did. =)

bought 2 tops just now. i lurve the billabong top! its write and green. =D~ hopefully i'm able to get a new sandals tomorrow. gee. urm. feel like getting a converse shoe too. but...seems like i'm spending too excessively already. yawn. see first. and adeline's cousin said i've got a model look. what the... dot.`~~

just done with maths. econs now! YAWN.

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2:28 PM

hey! these are the rings we bought on thursday. LeXonne totally rawkz! totally cool eh =)
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9:54 AM

Friday, February 04, 2005

argh. my nose's so itchy. and i slept for 2hrs just now!.. i'll have serious problem trying to sleep later. it seems so f-r-i-d-a-y today to me know. heh.

ok and so LeXonne finally bought the ring. and then...yvonne finally revealed why she's pissed with the meanie means in our class. its so obvious right? cus they're meanie means what! haha ok. in general, we've already made known to the rest of the LeXonne-ians about the meanie means whom they were absolutely ignorant about. ZzZ`~ its just so sad to think that our class has become what it is today. but i've to protest/declare/whatever that we've nothing to do about it okay. its like...

we seldom interact with those meanie means lor. so naturally they're always not one of the topics we usually talk about together. we had neutral feelings toward them. apparently that isnt the case for them! they can write 20pages of nasty comments about us! which apparently isn't true. HAHA. ok. erm. ya...and how does a class with gossipers ever be united? they aren't usual gossipers but those who gossip to the max, pass mean comments about everyone including passer-bys, mean hypocritics(and i mean those to the MAXXXXX), get frigging pissed about things that dont concern them at all. example: others going to the toilet quite often, others who talk like the way they naturally are and so forth. so idiotic can. cuz they think they're OH-SO-PERFECT, they make mean comments about everyone. even yvonne said..."she doesnt seem like a christian. though she mentions jesus now and then, she's not behaving how a christian ought to be" in other words, she's bringing insult to christianity! (sorry to christians out there, no offence!!) sigh. i cant believe such people exist. they really dont deserve my respect. seriously.

JOKE OF THE DAY: someone asks a girl (yy) whether she wants a ring as an identity. yy simply replied: "oh, cant wear rings to school what. "

dont get it eh.

first impression : such an obedient girl. you happen to look down at her hand and notices that she's wearing a ring on her index finger.

ask her go bang wall lar!

HAHA. dumb ass! serious. =x

sorry for sounding uncouth in this entry but, there's no reason for me to be nice to people like them.

mr raj(my a/e maths teacher in sec sch) just msg-ed me asking about my promos results. urghh. im stressed.

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1:11 PM

Thursday, February 03, 2005

gee. chemistry spa is finally over!.. wooo.. been trying to squeeze every single fact of chem into my head for the past few days. hope i've done well. haa.now that its finally over, my head feels 'lighter' now. whaha`~

lost to eve today. hmm. was feeling really discouraged at the start of the 3rd set. and it was like...my heart just wasnt there. dot dot. anyway, really hope nothing happens to eve. *crosses fingers* she's facing some...problem. haix. =
oh ya yvonne lent me a book by nicholas sparks! damn kewl. heh. oh ya the name of our clique is called LeXonne (yvonne always pronounces it as Le-Xon-Ni. but its actually Ler-Xon.) yupz. and our identity is a ring with the word LeXonne engraved. kewl eh. whahaha. gotta study for next monday's upcoming econs consolidation test. i really flunked the previous essay test! the one upon 25 you know. shan't say how much i got. heh heh. but...acutally i expected it lar. cus i didn't really focus on that test. Zzz~~ so so tired.

i'm really starting to dislike this fella in my class to the MAX. she simply sucks. blardee problematic. yea i'm nice to others but not to her. cus she's invisible to me you know. haa. makes a freaking big fuss about everything besides her blardee hypocritical attitude problem. she has nasty comments for everyone. besides herself. cus she thinks she's OH-SO-PERFECT. she's so pitiful dont you agree? boils when she sees people she doesnt like. lol. hates this dislikes that. while here we are laughing and talking...she's frustrated and pissed. haha. how can a person like her ever enjoys life. yawn. such a bytch. as i said before...she's a classic example of what meanie means are.

i'm really afraid. i cant forget how much i'd to go through alone because of you. what i felt... it wasn't simply sadness but utter desolation. it wasn't simply loneliness but bottomless void. you dont need me at all. you cant bring me happiness like you used to so please... dont inflict anymore pain in me.

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2:41 PM